Being a Nurse with a Stethoscope

I haven't really used this blog in a few years, but recent events of a few women publically bashing a profession and disciple, that was started by women, has made me need to say something. The co-hosts of "The View" really need think before they speak, especially when deciding to make embarrassing and disappointing statements that proceed to tick off 3 million plus nurses and health care professionals around the nation. I am so very proud to be a nurse and have all the respect for Miss Colorado, Kelley Johnson, for showing this nation that her career as a nurse really does matter.

Anyways, the following I posted on Facebook earlier today:

I don't normally care for The View but now I REALLY don't. To criticize Miss Colorado for telling the world about how she feels being a Nurse is her real talent is honestly very disappointing. What struck a cord with me is that her stethoscope was referred to as a "doctor's stethoscope." I'm sorry, Ms. Behar, but one of the first things you get when you are admitted to nursing school is a stethoscope. This is so we can listen to our patient's heart and lungs, to make sure they are working normally, and if they aren't, we can tell their doctor. Nurses are typically with patients for 8, 12, or 16 hours at a time. We get to know these people, and when there is a change in their condition, we are typically the first to know. Its a gut feeling for most of us in the field, and this gut feeling helps us keep our patient's safe and has saved their lives.
As for Alzheimer's patients, they are some of the more difficult ones to care for due to their disease. It makes them forget what is wrong with them and why they are in the hospital. They try to leave, try to hit us, and don't even realize they are doing anything wrong. It's heartbreaking. But those moments when they are able to be lucid, and you see the person underneath, it makes caring for them worth it. I cannot even count the times I have run full speed down the hall to a bed alarm, hoping to get there before the patient -who probably forgot where he/she was - ends up falling on the floor because they tried to get out of bed on their own.
As a nurse, we sacrifice our time to go to the bathroom, eat a full meal, drink water, and sit down to keep people, loved ones, safe. I have been told multiple times by patient's and their families "I couldn't do what you do." And I take that as a complement, because I believe I was called to be a nurse. It is a talent to be able to do your job well - talent and hard work. So Miss Colorado, I think your monologue was fantastic, realistic and raw. You did your best to show in a few minutes what we do each day we are on the job. It takes bravery and talent to do something like that in a competition typically full of traditional talents. And as for you ladies of The View: come walk a mile in a nurse's shoes (and make sure you wear good ones because we walk a LOT) before you go criticizing a person, and a field, that saves lives on a regular basis.


All in all. Think before you speak. Respect and support women when they believe their career is their talent, because a lot of times, it is.

Oops....

I forgot I had a blog. Well, kind of. Honestly, it's slipped my mind and I'm now going to start trying to make a more consistent effort. My goal is to start posting once a week. It may happen more often, but hopefully not less :) So anyway, let me get you up to speed on where life has taken me in 2013.

 Over the last 6 months, a lot of good changes have happened. I've been accepted to graduate school at the University of Michigan to work towards a masters in nursing with a pediatric nurse practitioner focus. I've also decided to move out to Ann Arbor for school. Growing up in West Michigan, this is quite the change for me, but I'm very excited about it. I've also started working at the University of  Michigan hospital on an adult leukemia and telemetry (aka heart monitor) floor, and so far so good! I'm loving it. The patient ratios are a little better than where I was at and since U of M is a teaching hospital, I feel like I'm learning SO much every shift. This place feels like where I'm supposed to be. Which, truthfully, hasn't happened since I was at Hope. And I'm working evenings, so I have a sleep schedule again, which unless you've worked nights, you may not understand how wonderful it is to sleep at night all the time. Another perk is that I'm now working with one of my best friends, and seriously, it's so great!!

Also, another reason reason I'm updating my blog and making an effort to write more frequently, is the fact my twin sister and her best friend started a blog (which reminded me I have a blog)- it's called "Well, that was awkward...". If you're looking for a good laugh, I'm sure it won't disappoint. They are two awesome girls with quite the sense of humor and have a interesting tendency to have some pretty ridiculous stuff happen to them (hence the name of the blog).

Well I hope everyone had a wonderful 4th and have a great weekend!

Which Way Should I Go?

Do you ever feel like you know exactly what your life plan is? What your goal is in the next 2, 3, or 5 years...maybe even the next 10 years? Normally, I feel like I can roughly plan out things a couple years in advance, but recently, I haven't been able to see what life has for me past my next approved schedule for work. This has only been amplified as I have been re-looking into my options for graduate school. I feel like I'm being called in a direction that may not be the easiest or what I had planned on doing a week or month ago.  But this direction hit me, kind of like a bus, in the heart. It has everything I want in the program, for exactly what I want to do. But my other option, also has it's positives.

Though I really like working with the oncology population (and my AWESOME co-workers), I LOVE working with children, and ultimately want to work in the healthcare field with children and their families. I love seeing them on their journey through childhood and if I could help them during that journey by helping them to grow into healthier individuals, it would be awesome.

SO I'm asking that you help me with something. Please pray for me that I choose the direction that I am being called in, whichever it may be. It may not be the easiest one, and either one will require some changes.  I am trusting God that he will help me figure out which path to go down, because right now, I feel like I am stuck in the crossroads.

Have a good rest of the week - I personally enjoyed the little bit of snow we received yesterday. It made me excited for the holiday season and all that goes along with it. It also gave me a wonderful excuse to cozy up under a blanket, drink some hot cider, and watch a movie.

But until next time - Stay WARM :)

A hole in the road (or sidewalk)

This past week has been quite an exciting one in ways that I am not too fond of. So many that it makes me think that last weekend was FOREVER ago.

First, a good family friend was in the hospital due to his heart just not wanting to cooperate and had to get a pacemaker placed. Everything went wonderfully, but still not an ideal situation. Tuesday, I saw one of my favorite patient's I have ever had the joy and privilege of caring for lose her battle to cancer. My heart is still broken for her and her family. She was such a strong, beautiful woman that lit up a room. And Wednesday threw a little bump in my own life, when I went for a run, stepped in a hole, and ended up doing a number on my "good"ankle. This has now resulted in me being on crutches until this coming Thursday.

Yes, I think less than ideal would describe this week perfectly. I am already itching to go do everything like normal, but realizing that I can't. Even grocery shopping is an issue because it is a little hard to do on your own when crutching around. I like to be independent, and the whole non-weight-bearing-on-my-right-leg is making that a little bit of a problem. So needless to say, I'm going to be going a little stir crazy until next week. And have really sore arms, because I've never had good upper body strength (heck that's why I like running so much).

As frustrated as I am, it makes me think back to high school and remember how I got bad ankles in the first place, playing basketball. Particularly, when I blew out my "bad" ankle out senior year and then re-injured it, but managed to hidden from my coach for two days (and start a game before he pulled me), because I really just didn't want to miss another conference game. Whoops. I still say it was worth it.

Funny enough,  I was able to see one of my best friends I played with on that team on Friday. We actually played every single season of basketball and volleyball together, from 7th grade through senior year. When I walked crutched into the restaurant and gave her a hug, she said, "I feel like you're always on crutches!" I replied, "Dani, it's been 6 years!"which made me first, feel OLD that it's been that long since high school, and secondly, make me very thankful to still be so close to her after all these years! (Love you!) Needless to say, we had a good laugh about it.

Until next week, I'll TRY to be a better patient than I was then. And I'd really like to get back to work, and back to running asap. And being independent.

I hope you all have had a good weekend! Now it's time for me to go to sleep, and PRAY that the Tigers don't get swept tomorrow..... EKK!

Night!

Family.

Loud. Loving. Crazy. Supportive. Time management challenged. God-loving. Open. Light-hearted. Good at cooking (and drinking). Fun. Competitive. Sport-obsessed. Happy. 

The words above help to describe the group of people that I care for most, my family. If I have learned anything about myself in the last year, it's that these people are the ones that hold the deepest place in my heart. The ones that I will drop everything for, in an instant, to be at their side. The people who's jokes and sarcasm I will willingly be the brunt of.. (cough...Molly...cough...). The ones that drive me nuts sometimes, but I miss them dearly. The people I want to share my hopes and dreams, my highs and lows. The people I love unconditionally.

One of the greatest blessings in my life is my family. Immediate and extended. I have some incredible people in my life. My family includes those who are blood-related, and those who I am blessed to have as a part of my life through divine intervention. 

We check in on each other just because. Get frustrated because no one can decide what they want to do for dinner, so we don't eat until 9pm. We are late for church more than on time. You can guarantee that if my Dad is cooking a meal, there will be enough left over to feed at least 3 extra people (hey, I like leftovers so it's ok). Our family gatherings, of any sort, are loud. LOUD. But hey, that's us. That is who we are. And that is what makes our family unique. I love them, and they love me. Through the flaws, the moodiness, the failed attempts at communicating, we accept and love one another. Everyday. And that is my family. Not perfect. But there. Solid. Dependable. Always. 

My "Gift"

If someone was getting to know me, I would tell them a few of things. The first is that I have a twin sister. The second would be I am a nurse, and the third is that I like to run and stay active. By the third topic in this conversation, the person I am talking to may get a taste of my "gift." It is a gift that has been passed down through the generations of my family, and one that is ever present at many family get-togethers. What I am talking about is the gift of gab. Or we could just say, I can talk.... a lot. Sometimes, it is my downfall, and I spend to much time talking with people (or being the one who talks too much...). Other times, I am very grateful for the ability to start a conversation with just about anyone on the planet. It has helped me greatly over the past year or so as a bedside RN.

As an oncology unit, we see patient's and families in all states and conditions. They come from all backgrounds, dealing with potentially joyous or devastating circumstances. I have come to realize that striking up a conversation about normal topics, like the Tigers, movies, families, or hobbies, can be the exact distraction that the patient or family member may be looking for. And sometimes, these conversations about the basic, normal, things of everyday life can develop into something quite extrodinary. Patients will open up about their fears and goals. They will ask the questions they might not have felt comfortable asking previously in the day. Sometimes, you can get a patient to smile or laugh that hasn't for days. Families will also ask questions and sometimes, they talk more than I even do ;). But in all reality, being a bedside RN has really challenged me in learning how to talk to people, and when to use silence in the relationship. Sometimes, words don't do anything and it is the actions that speak volumes. I have learned that with each new patient, comes a new balance and challenge of these things. Some patients would rather have minimal interactions and conversations. Others are so talkative, you have to tell a co-worker to call you in 5 minutes to get you out of the room.

Nursing is teaching me about the other gifts I have, and how they can intertwine with all other areas of my life. Sometimes, I look at a patient and they directly remind me of someone care about. My grandma. My father. My best friend. In the last year, I've had patient's that have directly reminded me of each of these people and many more. It reminds me of how real these situations are, how scary and uncertain they can be, and how life is precious. During the last week at work, my shifts have overwhelmed me at an emotional level. Our floor has been very heavy, and though I love being a nurse, the week challenged me in a new way. Last Tuesday morning, I left with a heavy heart. That night, I was stretched emotional, mentally, and physically, leaving me seriously questioning why I had ever chosen to go into nursing in the first place. Being a positive person, I normally don't get to this point and I turn myself around by thinking of all the things I am blessed and grateful to be a part of as a nurse. Tuesday, I just couldn't get there. And though I woke up later still in that mood, I was able to get out of it thanks to some wonderful friends. They lifted me up and pulled me out of my mood and negativity. And it was so subtle that I didn't realize it until I was laying on my couch later that night.

Through that quiet act, God showed his presence in my life. He has blessed me with people that I can lean on when I just can't handle things on my own. Truthfully, I cherish the moments I can look back and see how God is working in my life. Even thought the moment itself may have been less than ideal, it is special and allows me to realize how His plan is great, glorious, and more elaborate that we could ever imaging. I am reminded to trust Him fully, knowing He is there whenever is trouble of any kind (big or small). A reminder of the love He has for each of us and that God is always good.

To come full circle, I am back to my talkative self that isn't contemplating her career choice anymore. I know that this is the place God has intended me to be right now. And that is good feeling.

Also, I was dinking around on Hope's website a few days ago and stumbled along this song by the Hope College Worship Team. Needless to say, I couldn't have found it at a better time. So if you have 5 minutes, you should listen to it too. It may just give you that extra boost.


One more thing, completely unrelated. I am 99% sure I saw a cougar this weekend. Yes. A COUGAR. That was interesting. But a story for another day ;)

Have a good week!!

Spring

Every year, I can't decide whether I'm a bigger fan of Fall or Spring. But, when May rolls around, I know why spring is always in the fight for being my favorite season. Michigan has beautiful day's in May, today being no exception. It has days that are perfect to be outdoors, without the overwhelming amount of heat (and humidity) like the later months of summer. And it's the month that kicks off summer, where the months are spent traveling and seeing people that we don't get to see during other times of the year, laying out at Lake Michigan, and playing at cottages with family and friends (when we aren't working of course). Can you tell, I can't wait? Especially since this little girl is now part of our family!

This is Roo, my family's new yellow lab pup. She's a cutie, isn't she? And yes, I'm completely smitten by her. She is now 9 and a half weeks old and showing she has quite the personality. This summer with her should be quite the show. Let's just say that she knows she is cute, and she has a little sass to her. Our 13 year old Jack Russell Terrier, Iggy, tolerates her and basically only "plays" with her in the sense that he allows her to chew on his collar. But she has made a couple of other friends that WILL play with her. One is a cute 6 mo. old black lab named MJ, and the other is a bigger version of herself (see picture below), named Libbi, who happens to be the reason my little sister wanted to get a yellow lab in the first place.

I've gotten to spend a good chunk of time with her, thanks to my little sister, Sami, having knee surgery in Indianapolis to repair her torn ACL. Which leaves me to be the only child in our family who HASN'T torn their ACL, and I'd like to keep it that way. The Shelbourne Clinic, where Sami had her surgery, is awesome. It is where Molly, and a few other friends have gone to have their ACL surgery done, all having great results and a speedy recovery back into their sports. Sami is doing well with the rehab and gets to walk around. If everything goes as planned, she'll be ready to go for all of her fall sports that start off her senior year of high school. And I'm not even going to think about it being her senior year, because it makes me feel like I'm getting old....haha.

Well, I'm off to get my life together before I start a three in a row at work. Sorry if I fall off the face of the earth for a while. Be back Saturday ;). Have a wonderful rest of your week and enjoy these BEAUTIFUL May days!